At My Worst. | dear jules

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december 9, 2019

Last night, I worshipped God at my worst.

I was crying so hard, I felt like everything was crumbling down, it was like this season is filled with me stumbling so many times and making so much mistakes. So i did the first thing that popped up in my mind, listen to worship songs and praising Him.

I always had this instinct to play some kind of music whenever I feel sad, lonely, or any kind of emotion, it's kind of how I cope with my feelings especially while listening to worships songs. It gives me the sense of relief and reminding me that He is just right beside me with open arms, waiting for me to cone back to Him.

My heart felt heavy while worshipping, it was kind of funny to look back at how i sang the lyrics, it sounded like i just mumbled the words really loudly because you can't ever hear me singing, it was just under all of my crying lol.

I felt the weight lifting off me slowly, it was like God was giving me a tight, warm hug and I felt safe in Him.

To all who are struggling right now, always be reminded that what you are going through is just a season, it's temporary because God is giving you a lesson that will benefit your walk with Him.