unconditional love | les. three

It's February so you know it means? Valentines Day. And what do people give on that day? Chocolates and flowers that will wither soon. Am I too negative about this? Probably.

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As a fourteen-year old living in a society where love is a superior thing and everyone is obsessed with finding their true love and all of that things but I won't talk about that, I want to talk about crushes, specifically my experiences on having crushes.

Of course, I had a fair share of having crushes and it isn't a big deal, well majority of my crushes are fictional but that doesn't count *pfft*. But seriously, I rarely have crushes and when I do, things get a bit awkward, really awkward.

I tend to overthink a lot and it leads me to question why I even have a crush, most of my questions are, "You have never even talked to him, geez, it's too weird if you even have a crush on someone you don't even know" or "That crush thing will fade away eventually and it's like a cycle so what's the point of having a crush?"

Yeah, that's basically my thinking process when I start liking a guy and it's pretty straight forward, my mind is pretty weird and overthinks a lot so get used to it.

Majority of having a crush is you telling your friends and them always teasing you, it's fun at first but you realize that it doesn't really matter.

You might think i'm very straightforward about this crush thing and I have no sense of fun for it and I mean, I do have moments where I completely stare at guys and admire him or when he tries to talks to me I turn into literal jelly, no seriously, my words get jumbled up and the only thing you can see in my brain is little people panicking, screaming and sounding the alarm of "I don't know what i'm doing i'll just be awkward" button.

An actual representation of my brain:

If i'm being honest, being this vunerable and straightforward really opened my eyes because it made me realize the true meaning of love,

His love.

You've probably felt the love from your parents, or any of your loved ones and think that they have given you so much love, well there's someone who can give you so much love that you can't even describe it, and that someone is Jesus.

The love, the unconditional love of Christ cannot compare to anybody else's, it says in Romans 5:8:

But God showed how much he loved us by having Christ die for us, even though we were sinful.

We were never supposed to receive His love.

We are not worthy to be loved.

We sinners do not deserve His love.

But he loved us first.

He lived how we all lived.

He died in our place.

And we do not deserve that, we do not deserve Him.

I want to end this with a verse that you have probably hear a million times before but it's a keeper:

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

John 3:16

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I want to hear your guys' stories in the comments down below, see ya 💖